05/01/2024 End week of the semester(Almost there)

    I am constantly tired and irritated from working on last week's dues, papers, and presentations. I get the strong urge to flee from it all. We both are tired in our own ways.

    Yesterday, I went to sleep at 2 AM and woke up at 9 AM to the jingles of my cat's collar. Once my sleep was disrupted, there was no way I could sleep more because I started sneezing right then. It's a continuous sneeze with thick nasal discharge (like egg white) and blood. This is now a daily thing. So, it's the new normal. Then, I made breakfast—two fried eggs with mozzarella cheese on top, a cream cheese bagel, and a cup of cocoa. Normally, I prefer rice and fish for breakfast if it's available, and of course, a spicy masala milk tea. Any other beverage, other than tea, doesn't have the power to energize me. So, quite certainly, I dozed off again at 1 PM and had a few crazy dreams—a flash of having sex with some big guy, and then a flash of seducing some Black guy. Some horny wet dreams but not very comforting. In my dreams, I was on the run, like in a hurry, running, hiding, or keeping secrets. It wasn’t a relaxing sleep, anyway.

    After I woke up, I made some beef steak. I got this piece from the campus pantry; the date is written on top, it’s a little expired. Anyway, I fried them, tried to make a proper steak, but found out it had hardened too much, so I had to add some water and sauces to soften it. Took a shower in the meantime. Went outside the house to sun-soak and dry my hair. I washed the maxi dress that I had been wearing for over a week, which I got from my mom. It’s my mom's. Shiva the cat went out with me, smelled all the flowers, and ate some grass.

    I ate some rice and beef. The beef wasn't so soft yet, maybe because it's steak. I boiled some water and Jion poured some tea on it. Then, I made milk tea. And now, I’m in my room, working on the progress of the dues.

    

In the meantime, Jion went to campus, had a meeting with his professor, and helped another classmate with his statistics analysis. But he couldn’t solve the entire problem. When Jion came back, he shared the problem with me and asked if I had any idea. I didn't. He made his own meal, and I shared a little bit of meat with him. Of course, he didn’t like it much; it still smelled of raw meat—which is okay for me because I can eat anything—I am that kind. We had our lunch together even though the meals were different. Then he made a joint and went outside to smoke. Now, he went to nap.